Feelings of a Clueless Man

In May of 2008, there were many things that Spiky wanted to do here in Albay after several months of stay in Manila. One of which is to experience new chapters that he never had before. He said to himself that he will redefine his life - he will go out more often to meet new faces. He, indeed, met strangers and eventually, created friends. He even also gained a lover after few weeks of stay.
He really felt so blessed during those times when he had his lover because back in his high school or college days, things weren’t the same as that. He then embraced a warmer atmosphere wherever he goes. He thought that those days would not come to his life.

In an abrupt moment, Spiky had to know again the meaning of alone. He was dumped and deeply hurt. Then, he only got an explained thought through text that things have changed. He felt doom, anger, madness, and sort of betrayal. A voice inside grew and grew louder that he wanted to scream and shout it out. He exerted ways to speak with his ex in person but he only got rejection and cold comments.

Then in September of 2008, Spiky was still trying to get the predicament out from his system. He went to Manila to be with his friend just to spill the emotions on closed-door four walls. When he was alone in that room, he was with the silence and coldness. No one can hear his wail, no one can see his tears, and no one can feel him. It was only him. That was only the chance he got in letting it out.

After 3 days of stay in Manila, he went back to Bicol. He met new faces, became slightly happy, fought a foe, became sad, and then experienced a bloody accident. That accident happened in December during Christmas Eve and he then realized that he still had deep emotions for his ex. He then again commenced to talk in person but chances of meeting up were fading. Spiky got a derogatory reply through a text. “Enjoy your ‘activities’…”

Spiky was able to make up his mind that there’s no hope for any closure because of that text. He nervelessly surrendered, then squarely accepted new beginnings in life.

How many pages should be turned before he realizes that a broken piece is still broken, and the time is still not faltering?